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For the last 3 years or so I have been making toy art collages. Some of the inspirations have been vintage toys and things I had and played with as a child.
Yesterday I went to goodwill and found their toy section gone, thought it was strange, but maybe they were just remodeling...
Today I went to the Bins and looked everywhere for odd little plastic wonders that i love so much, finally I found a Barrel of Monkeys and was very excited to use the monkeys as a background in one of my erotic art pieces.
I got to the cashier and she took them away! Took my Monkeys! I tried to explain i would not play with them or eat them or give them to children, that I was making artworks out of them,but she could not sell them to me.
So now I am asking where do the monkeys go? Landfill? Lead paint flaking off into the ground into the water system?
This is horrible I am outraged, I want my Monkeys, and plasticy elephants, polar bears, dinosaurs and squid... I want My Little Ponies, Care Bears, and Little People...
I know these toys were made poorly, under harsh labor conditions, truly the root of all evil is something that is adorable and sentimental but makes people sick and kills the environment...
But I am so torn, I do not think these thing should go into the Landfill.

If you have any toys to donate to the "Make Margarete Happy Foundation" it would be greatly appreciated.

I want my Monkeys.

Anything Creative and Fun Happening Fat Tuesday? I am totally into dressing up but need a place to go!

Saturday the is the 1000 Masks Masquerade I went last year and it was full of creative costumes, decor, and great tunes.
Check it out:

Saturday February 21st There is a great Masquerade, I am helping with decor and it should be massive fun! This is a fundraiser for the Black Rock Boutique, we have been gifting fabulous clothing to people at Burning Man since 1996:
http://www.blackrockboutique.com

Join us for Music, Masquerade, and Mayhem.

Surrounded by Ninjas
http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=48475477
Global Ruckus
http://www.myspace.com/djglobalruckus
Justin Jade
Electro Kidd
Cosmic Lees Intergalactical Traveling Show * CLITS*
$10 presale www.brownpapertickets.com/event/54354
$12 at the door

Rotture 315 SE 3rd Ave

Hope to seeya there-
margarete

I am leading a pub crawl by bicycle/coloring contest tonight 7:30pm starts in NE at Concordia ale house.
many more rides ahappening:
www.shift2bikes.org
yay bikes!!!

Baby, instant soup doesnt really grab me
Today I need something more sub-sub-sub-substantial
A can of beans or blackeyed peas, some nescafe and ice,
A candy bar, a falling star, or a reading of doctor seuss

www.toyartpdx.org

Curating an art show! Need lots of submissions...
Also need performers.
The subject is toys!!!
STEPS FOR SUBMISSION:
1. Join the Toy Art Show 2008 group: www.flickr.com/groups/toyartshow2008/
2. To add a photo to the group, select the photo in your account you will see options for adding the photo to the group directly above the photo.
3. Please DO NOT submit more than 5 images.
4. We will be contacting you through your flickr mail account, so please check that account.
any other questions feel free to email me

I have been wanting to do this for a couple of years now, but never sought anyone out until now. While at BM this year I had my 3rd reiki encounter, it was one of my off days and I went to center camp and just started crying. He came up to me and first hugged me then asked permission to do energy work on me, I was so relieved someone out of the blue came to help me in my time of need. Then he told me that I have an enormous amount of healing within me, and that I should be attuned. When leaving BRC that's all I could think about, when I reached civilization I found out my mom was in hospice, I traveled back to Phoenix for about 2 months. I had forgotten about his words until my brother Deano was leaving, when he hugged me goodbye I felt his hurt and energy and both of us started shaking. I wished I had been attuned earlier, so I could help my family through this time.
A few days before I left I posted an ad on cl for a teacher, and the only person who replied turned out to be even better suited for me than I could have imagined she lent me books, and is starting a healers group soon that would be an amazing way to be more envolved. Anyways next Sunday positive healing energy comes my way and yours.

I was in phoenix for way too long, the smoggy air does bad things to my throat. But being there for my family before and after my mom passed was a need. I realized something I have been needing to do for a while, get myself attuned to Reiki, I feel like I could have help so much more if I was fully attuned to my healing energy. There are no words that rightfully describe missing someone but feeling happy that she is no longer suffering. I sometimes have to convince myself it wasn't a dream she has always been there.

it reminds me of alittle over a month ago, sorting through things packing my life away into litle bags and boxes, well now half my life the other half is packed in storage... I am a bit scared of loosing my connection with my partner when I move out, him dating other people, me dating others... Portland is more open to being in an open relationship. So in the end will that close our love. I know its kinda a silly fear we have been together for so long.

Today seems bright and cheery. I have been writing a lot putting together a website for my art and decided to also include thing that inspire my art like communities, people, and places like Burning Man.
I had a discussion with my partner today. We love each other so very much, but I think he is scared of something he is not telling me. I consider him my primary, and he just doesn't like the word. I want to say thats ok, but part of me is in need of that stability. It's just a word... or is it. I am not sure whether or not to hold value in words like these or just to discard them because actions speak louder. I think that others in my life would gladly step up into that role, but I do not have the connections with them as I do with my partner. I am considering the possibility of searching for someone who wants to be in the primary role, someone who is ok eventually living together or with many people in a community, not really a poly community, a place with like minded people, we do not have to be sexual with each other, but more of a family. But really for now I am still head over heals with him, and if I try and ignore it I might just ruin our love and affection.

Look I'm standing naked before you
Don't you want more then my sex
I can scream as loud as your last one
But I can't claim innocence

Oh God
Could it be the weather
Oh God
Why am I here
If love Isn't forever
And it's not the weather
Hand me my leather

I could just pretend that you love me
The night would lose all sense of fear
But why do I need you to love me
When you can't Hold what I hold dear

Oh God
Could it be the weather
Oh God
Why am I here
If love Isn't forever
And it's not the weather
Hand me my leather

I almost ran over an angel
He had a nice big fat cigar
"In a sense" he said "You're alone here
So if you jump you best jump far"

Oh God
Could it be the weather
Oh God
Why am I here
If love Isn't forever
And it's not the weather
Hand me my leather

*tori*

feel like singin sappy sad love songs all day long.
the weather is dreary and my heart is confused.
it wants to explore but at the same time it is content and wants nothing more than my lover and I.
everything they ever told us as a kid was a lie. spoon fed and molded into something, and its hard to break free and just love and allow others to love.
sappy love songs got it wrong, but i still take comfort in them.

i have a lot of hope in my heart, i am leaving some amazing people, strong connections, family, art, music, and all that i have known and loved throughout my life. it feels like the biggest plunge ever to move over 1 thousand miles away to a community where i hardly know a soul. i do know it is for the better though. a new way of life. i will soon be carless, hopefully careless as well. there are alot of fears i must face them. i plan on being in the midst of another creative community that cares for each other and the environment. but most of all i hope to find love, happiness, inspiration, and laughter.

welp i guess this is my first entry. i am alittle hesitant to have a live journal and have friends and lovers read about me even more privately oh and complete strangers too. but i am trying to be a more open individual and maybe solve some of the problems of life just by having people relate.
my biggest problem right now is trust, in myself, in lovers, in friends. it seems easier to trust in friends but then again the true friends end up being a hard catch. but i feel like in the midst of many social circles, known by many even though i feel like i fade away in the background part of my introverted self.
anyways i think i need to work on the trust more of lovers which may just really be connected to trusting in my own beauty, creativity, love, and mind.